Saturday, May 07, 2005

Cold Turkey

The reasons I've been away are many and yet I don't really know if there is any reason at all.

I've been sick, yes, and s-l-o-w-l-y recovering. After a week of off and on and a word of advice from my oldest sister, the one who lives in Texas. I finally forced myself to take it easy and stopped rearranging my room and cleaning everything in sight just because I was home.

My 5 year old, soon to be 6 year old (Monday!), said to me after I asked him if he would want me to be gone all day and not be able to be with him all the time, "You're not with me all the time You're on the computer all day". Needless to say, the computer hasn't been touched since. I asked him if he noticed the next day and he says, yes only because Daddy took the computer. I was rescued in that Daddy had not in fact taken the computer and it was sitting right there, albeit closed and off the desk. Since then my living area has been completely rearranged to a much calmer space with the desk removed and my closet turned into an office with the door being replaced with a sheer curtain.

I've also had somewhat of a breakdown - not technically, but sobbing for an hour on the phone to my oldest sister, releasing all the pentup stress and worries of being here and not being home. There are a million good things I could mention but somehow things always seem to ccome at a price and this price is too high to pay. We'll be home soon, God willing.

I wish I had something more to offer than cold turkey - maybe some cranberry sauce with that? but I don't. I'm not really sure where things stand right now or where they will. You guys are in my thoughts and prayers either way - each one of you. I appreciate your love and prayers and thoughts as well.


Mel said...

I'm so sorry, sweetie! I wish I could be there for you. :)

My only saving grace as far as the computer goes is that it's in our basement, so I CAN'T be on it if the kids are up. When we move though....I bet I'll be getting myself in trouble. ;)

beth said...

I'll be praying for you.

Barbara said...

Glad you are back. :)

girl from florida said...

Oh, sweetie, take your time. You know we all love you & understand. I'll be praying for you.

I just wanted to come by here and tell you Happy Mother's Day... You're a wonderful mommy and your children are so blessed to have you!!

Kismet said...

I know what you are feeling, truly.
And if you don't post, you don't post. You know your own priorites better than anyone.
Happy Mother's Day, and take care.


Tash said...

Thinking of you Pink. You've been missed.

Happy Mother's Day! :)

Stacey said...

Aw! You're such a good mother! Glad to hear that you're OK! :)

Adrianne said...

I'm just so glad you're ok? You are ok, right? Amidst recovery, going cold turkey, and everything else...I hope you're doing ok...glad to hear from you and like so many have said, you were missed!!
Hope today was wonderful ~ you deserve it!
God bless!

Cecilia said...

Oh sweety sweety pie!!! I just want to offer you some calming tea, put my arms around you and listen to you. I guess that is the feeling of being "displaced", of neither being here nor there....hang in there. You *will* get to go home soon and it is a very good thing that you know that and taking comfort in that...

We all have missed you very very much.

Keep getting well. I'm sure you had a very nice treat for Mother's Day. :)

You are blessed.


island girl said...

welcome back!!!! *hugs*

xx amanda

mommyd said...

I know that feeling, being displaced and away from home. I am so sorry you are stressed and sad. I hope you feel better soon and remember we are here for you whenever you need to vent! Happy belated Mother's day. Hugs!

Rachael said...

I hope you are feeling better. Any Happy belated Birthday to your little one!

La Nina said...

Hey there!

I've been a little out of the loop too. Glad to see we're both back.

And forgive my one-track mind, but you've got a HUGE closet! Envy is seething from my pores.

(Not to make light of your problems -- I sincerely pray that you get to go home soon as this situation is really taking its toll on you)


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