Friday, August 08, 2008

Growing up around me

Sometimes I wonder what I am doing here. Sometimes I feel like I am living life day by day, trying to survive. We're doing the right thing with finances, but sometimes I wonder why we didn't buy that house down south. I've always lived on the edge - of everything. Now it feels like we're starting to get a handle on things. We're going to counseling, we've paid down a large amount of debt, we're moving into a place where we'll actually have a decent rent to income ratio, Justinbustin is going to a FREE school, Shawners is going into first grade, and I feel almost uncomfortable, like putting on a dress I could never afford to buy. It fits me, it looks great, but I sure as heck won't be walking out the door with it. In a sense not buying the house down south last year has me feeling like I'll never walk out the door with that dress. It feels like the families we know are growing up around us - getting to know their neighborhood around them, taking summer vacations, on the boat, to another state, even just to the beach - and here we are. Home. Struggling to even keep a roof over our heads and food on our plates. 

5 Comments:

Elle said...

Stop comparing yourself to others!! Enjoy what you DO have! A wonderful hubby, two amazing kiddos, a super fun life in a super fun town! I am guilty of the same, but I must say taking the public transport has really helped stray my thoughts from wandering that way. I am reminded daily at how fortunate I am, and how much i DO have. Remember, the grass is always greener!! Miss you so much! We need to talk soon!

Stace said...

I'm totally with Elle! But I am confused on the house buying down south thing. But you know it's the little things that should bring you happiness b/c "the best things in life are free" :D take it easy kid

Heather said...

Be proud of everything you have done with your life. We are all guilty of wanting what others have. Look how much fun you had with your kids in those pics, there are people out there that can't even do that with their own. Hugs!

pinksundrops said...

Here's a few similar ones from Target:

http://www.target.com/gp/detail.html/sr=/qid=/ref=br_1_br_1_14/602-7121980-6201416?ie=UTF8&node=617563011&frombrowse=1&pricerange=&index=tgt-mf-mv&field-browse=617563011&rank=-product%5Fsite%5Flaunch%5Fdate&asin=B000WPNMVM&rh=&page=2

My girlfriend bought this one after she saw mine:

http://www.target.com/gp/detail.html/sr=/qid=/ref=br_1_br_1_2/602-7121980-6201416?ie=UTF8&node=617563011&frombrowse=1&pricerange=&index=tgt-mf-mv&field-browse=617563011&rank=-product%5Fsite%5Flaunch%5Fdate&asin=B000WM185W&rh=&page=3

Courtney said...

Oh my friend - I know EXACTLY how you feel. We're all struggling. It's normal. Sending big hugs your way!!!!!

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