Friday, May 30, 2008

Disorganized

*warning! vent post ahead! a disorganized throw up of my feelings & thoughts*

As I'm looking for items to reorganize my life with, things that I used once on a daily basis e.g. my college study book, my block format for my weekly schedule, my calendar, I am finding evidence of my once organized state. Neatly organized drawers, with books lined up just so. Things exactly as I remember them a year ago when I took the time to figure out what I was doing. As I am going through things I remember putting things there, putting them here. Now for the life of me, I cannot remember WHERE I put anything!! I just spent three hours going through my garages, closets, laundry room, and storage room (and getting distracted for an hour, by the way, for a lost dog and his mommy), and the book I was looking for was RIGHT WHERE I HAD PUT IT A YEAR AGO. In a drawer in my desk. The same place I looked for it originally today, but am so CONVINCED I am so utterly disorganized at this point that nothing will be where I think it is. Turns out it is.

@#$"&%$#

I seriously dislike feeling this way, but am being way too damn stubborn in wanting to take the time to fix it. I feel like it took me four years before, but did it? Really? Did it? Turns out last time it took a year. But you know what? I really don't want to give a year to my house anymore. It's sucked so much from me by being a small place where I have to climb a buttload of stairs walking in and out of it, or even to my garage, a place where I can't leave too much out on my deck, or let my kids play too loud, or fight with my husband without worrying about somebody ELSE that I don't want to give it another damn iota of my energy.

2 Comments:

Stace said...

Screw being organized what you NEED keep what you don't toss. If you need it all, label it. IDK if that helps probably not, but you know I just wanted you to know I read your vent. :D

pinksundrops said...

Aw, thanks Stace. It totally was a vent and exactly what I needed to propel me into creating a summer schedule. Yes, a summer schedule : ) . Part of feeling so disorganized is not actually being out and DOING anything, and with the kids off from school last week I wasn't prepared to go from being so busy, busy, busy to NOTHING. I guess this is the first summer where I had BOTH of them in school all year, and now we are all in the summer months!

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