The Non Communication Communication Age

Warning! Major self analyzation to follow.

Something about email and text messaging puts me so at ease. I can contact the people that I know and love, let me them know exactly my point and be done. No formalities, no okay I'll call you later, just short and sweet. Of course when it comes down to using the phone with people it makes me stricken with fear!! I'm not sure why, but I have never been a big phone person. Now if somebody is not very good at email I will pick up the phone all day long. But if they are one to check their email at least once a day email is my sav-, okay well not quite that. So why is it that the mere thought of arranging a get together via the phone makes me quake in my boots? And when did this happen? I certainly have been phonaphobic in the past, but last year I was far from. In fact people thought it was strange that I would return their emails with a phone call - I just had so much to say!! Do I have less to say now? Less that I want to share? Less that I want to talk about? Do I desire to talk less in the first place? Or is that I think my life is boring, not worth talking about? No gorgeous beach, no cliffs to wonder, no downtown Santa Cruz that always has the crazy night life to talk about, no trendy shopping that just makes me super happy just to window shop, no Petroglyph to sit at and paint for hours with the Kids Cave that the kids would go in and watch a movie and come back out and paint and with people that had tears in there eyes when we told them we were moving. Maybe I am missing some of the deep relationships that were developing in Cali before I left. Some of the ones that I thought would become that way here aren't quite there yet and some of them I thought would be there someday probably aren't going to at all. It takes a LOT to develop a friendship. And this whole South Austin North Austin thing, thirty minutes apart seeming like way too much to travel - I'm not even going to go there. Although I have one sweet friend who I just realized has made the distance each time we've gotten together to come all the way up here. Well. There. I warned you. Major self analyzation. Any comments or answers although I may just be answering myself with my own questions, are welcome.