Friday, September 08, 2006
Lately I've been on this not needing no one and no body kick. Including and especially my hubby. I've been on some sort of auto pilot not involving anyone around me but God. I've found my center again. Who I am. What I want to be. What I want to do. Who matters to me. I've also neglected exactly who I desire in my life to get there. Last night I felt I know I don't need my hubbers to take care of the things I need to take care of. I don't feel I need him emotionally. I was wondering what I do need him for. I know I sure as heck need him in my life. The whole rest of my life. How do I need him there then. I came up with romantically. My lover, my friend, my confidante, my support, my backbone when I don't have one, the father of my children, my soulmate, the one God made perfectly just for me. I didn't come up with those words until just now. That is exactly what I need him for. Never mind I bitched at him all day, that was my old way of wanting him. I'm going to have to work through that because that is the kind of need I used to have for him. It's different this time. This time. I need him for all that he is.
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