It's not what is right or wrong, but what I need to do for ME. My family.
Sitting in Applebee's eating with my family, discussing with my husband of the feeling of the world crushing in, and how it may just be a bad year. I don't FEEL that way, it just SEEMS that it's that way with everything that's gone on and continues to go on. Sometimes people have bad years. It just happens. As a result I sit here and overanalyze what I'm doing, what I should be doing, how I should be doing it and when, wondering if I could somehow have prevented it or if I could somehow prevent it in the future. Then I come up with that thought. It's not about what is right or wrong, but what I need to do for me. So I will.
Courtney's post and the subsequent rabbit trail to CNN's Memorial led me to tears and a greater grasp of the meaning of this.