This whole day has been off. The last few days have been off for me, but tonight it just culminated with not being able to have a family day with our meeting and Shawners being sick. I feel like I haven't seen any of my friends since my party any way and I was feeling lonely and overwhelmed with life and needed a friend to talk to. A couple of friends I have are having relationship difficulties, so my relationship with them right now is more give than get which can be draining. I pretty much called everybody in my contact list that wouldn't need me more than I need them right now.
Finally I got a hold of a girl I haven't seen in forever and she mentioned she was watching the Oscars which instantly put me in a better mood realizing it was on (dude, I heart Harrison Ford but man he is looking old)! I also made plans with her to get together tomorrow which helped the mood! While I was chatting with her another friend called back and when I got off the phone we were able to chat for awhile which put me in an even better mood and got everything off my chest that I needed to vent, as well as being able to hear some of her vents.
I always end up happy when I stick my foot out there and make the effort for my friendships when I'm the one who actually needs it, but sometimes it's hard just to gather up the courage when I'm feeling so lonely and down and don't really have anything to give back. Fortunately I did tonight and I am in a much better mood than when this evening started out!