I can change
I can change
I am here in my mode
And I'm a million different people from one day to the next
I can change my mode yeah yeah yeah
(idea borrowed from the gorgeous Ms. Ashley)
Seeing Ashley's post and her words "this time next year... I won't be this girl anymore - I create my existence through change" struck a powerful chord in me. I am constantly trying to get back to who I was - the girl in the pictures that I love. If I just stopped and realized what I love, I would realize what I love is that I constantly change. Such a fascinating exercise going through old pictures with the idea of finding how I changed and really taking this to heart. Doing so made the fact that I can change not only from one day to the next, but even from one moment to the next, glaringly obvious.
I change. Every day. Another conversation that got me thinking on this was a text convo I had with Mar this morning. She was looking at our engagement photos on facebook and exclaiming how Brando looks fifteen (that happens to him without the sexy beard he has going on right now) and how I look exactly the same - that I haven't aged AT ALL. I told her those pictures were taken two years ago - I just labeled them engagement photos because we never actually had those done and they worked perfect. Then I told her she knows exactly how to make me feel good. I told her I should post ones of before we were married and just after. I was kind of fugly in a lot of them and that I look better now thank goodness. I also told her sometimes I ask Brando how he married me. He agrees I look better now. Then I told her, good thing it's not the other way around! And then I sat back and realized it really is a good thing it's not the other way around. Every change that happens is an absolutely amazing change. I am starting to embrace every single one.